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A Vague Book

Earlier today, I looked up from the fifteen projects I was working on at my desk. I realized my viewpoint was a rather solid representation of my current conundrum. I know all the healthy things I should be eating and drinking (water, coffee, fruit), but dammit all, the only thing I can focus on is that Halloween candy lurking in the background. Also, I have a cough that rivals something out of The Exorcist. I’ll spare you the details, but that’s why the cough drop makes a random appearance.

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Early this week, I made some big changes. Ones I’m not ready to write a ton about here, but let’s just say my plans for future races have changed drastically. In a sense, I feel defeated and disappointed in myself. I hope others aren’t disappointed, because I do hope to redeem myself eventually. I have other things I need to focus on first, and I’m working through that. So in another sense, I am relieved. The pressure I was putting on myself was having the opposite effect I had hoped for. Rather than feeling motivated and determined like I used to in college when I’d save 20 page term papers until the night before they were due, I just felt…lost and like I was grabbing for something I’m just not ready to reach yet.

Well, enough “Vague-booking” from me. I’ll plan on expanding more another time.

Halloween has come and gone. November is here, and that means I’m legally allowed to play Christmas music in my home and car. (If you are someone who is morally opposed to this, I promise I’m not forcing it upon you. I am simply someone who basks in the glory of winter and Christmas and all the warmth and fuzzies that come from it. I love Christmas movies and snow and hot cocoa. I love trimming the tree and decorating my home until it looks like Christmas threw up in there. And I’m not going to apologize for it. I don’t ignore Thanksgiving (although, let’s not pretend Thanksgiving is based upon some warm and fuzzy event…) by any means. I just love the chance to celebrate winter and being with family and friends.

Where was I going with this? Oh, right. Halloween happened. I am hesitant to include myself in the picture below, because I am admittedly disappointed at the sight of myself in my costume. If you are overweight, maybe you understand that disappointment…when you *feel* like you look pretty good and then you see a photo of yourself that makes you want to crawl into a closet. Oh well. LJ thought I looked badass (not her word choice, but close enough), and I have to focus on that.

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My little Sith Lord had a delightful and sugar-filled day. She has such a full candy bucket, and I’ll be first to admit I’ve been sampling from it far too much this week. Especially as I am trying so very hard (for the millionth time) to be conscious of what I am consuming. I am so grossed out by the idea of sugar, and yet these rich confections still seem to keep jumping right into my mouth. Bastards.

For real, though. I have an awful cold this week. (Sorry to any of my coworkers reading this who have had to listen to my disgusting cough. Thanks for putting up with me and the massive amounts of Clorox wipes I’ve been using.) My whole body hurts from coughing, and I’m pretty sure I’ve pulled a few muscles. And this has led to me having a bit of a pity party because I can’t run without having a massive coughing attack. Which has led to some “DGAF” kind of moments when it comes to the ample amount of treats available. Goodness, I’m sure getting my use out of Urban Dictionary today.

I promise. It’s gonna get better. Did you hear that? Hold me accountable, plz and thx.

Wishing you and yours a happy Daylight Saving time. Ugh. Maybe “happy” is the wrong sentiment. Maybe “I hope we can get through this dark-all-the-time BS” is closer to the truth. Either way. Snuggle in. Have some cocoa. Watch a Christmas movie (or Thanksgiving movie or Halloween or just a movie, whatever). Enjoy yourself.

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Ballerinas and Catsby and Wine-infused Coffee

And we meet again. On a Friday. Yay! Long weekend. Woo! Party time. Yeah!

Okay, that’s out of the way. This week was significantly less eventful on my end, and darnit, I like it that way. I still feel like I’m recovering from last week’s hustle and bustle.

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My baby had her first dance recitals this weekend. I was on stage with her (it was a “You & Me” class for caregivers and children, and though my role was minimal, I was still absolutely drained by the end of the weekend.

She did well, though. She smiled. She listened to me onstage (backstage was a different story). I guess that’s what matters. She loves to dance, and I think she’s going to be very good at it.

Other than that, the week has contained minimal excitement or activity. I’m re-framing my goals right now and really taking into consideration the things I need to do to achieve them.

Web-flavored Goodness

  • Sad news coming out of the running community. Gabe Proctor, a former NCAA champion, died by suicide last week. Nobody, regardless of their successes or kind heart or circumstances, is immune to depression and mental health issues. My thoughts have been with his family and friends.
  • I think I’ve referenced Mirna before in my blog. If I haven’t, I should have. Because this article made me say, “YUS, GIRL,” out loud as I was reading it.

“Lastly, I am beautiful. The entire running community is beautiful. And we determine that. Not you.”

  • Wine is good for you. We keep hearing this. So let’s skip the chit-chat, and I’ll break out the corkscrew. (Obligatory: moderation, people. Practice moderation.) (And sidenote, that article opened my eyes to the fact that there is now wine-infused coffee. This really blurs the structure of my day.)
  • One of my favorite cities on this planet held a memorial 5k. For a cat. Named Catsby. If it wasn’t dance recital weekend, I may have considered attending.
  • Yes. That’s all.

H’okay! I hope your long weekend is relaxing and fun and productive/unproductive (depending on what you want it to be) and filled with sparkles and rainbows and love. See you next week!

SHOP

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10/3/16: Manic Monday, the Chocolate Edition

Wait, it’s October? When the hell did that happen?

Seriously, though. I was just maybe kind of adjusting to the fact that it was September. And here comes October shooting in all HEY, THE PARTY IS HERE.

With the end of September came the MLA conference. I love being a librarian, and I learned even more about librarianing. Sometimes, it’s good to take a step back and remember why I chose to be a part of this career. I have so many ideas of things I’d love to do, if I can just embrace the passion and move forward. It was also in Duluth, my favorite city in the history of forever. I didn’t get to embrace the Duluth life as much as I would have liked. (C’mon, I had to wake up at 3:00 AM on Thursday morning to get to the conference in time!) But it inspired me in many ways while I was there. Hoping we can plan a mini-vacay there in the next few months.

With the beginning of October came the Chocoholic Frolic 10(-ish) k run. Although I thoroughly enjoy any run that has chocolate as the main perk, there were a few things I hope they can work to improve in the future.

  1. DISTANCE: Most importantly, I finished and noticed my GPS only recorded 5.5 miles. This was billed as a 10k, which is supposed to be 6.2. May seem like a petty thing to some, but this served as a training/taper session for me, and I count on those miles. Hopefully next year, they can offer this again but be a little more careful with measuring their distance. I know I am not the only one who had an issue with this.
  2. Time: So not only did the 10k start after the 5k (I like it when the longer distance goes first, because it takes…y’know, longer.), the 10k didn’t even start until 10:00. By this point, the sun was up and blaring. I ended up feeling slow and trudging along (even more so than usual), and I was a sweaty, stinky mess by the end. I know this is more of a fun run, but even just switching the times for the 10k and 5k would have helped. Maybe there were some course considerations regarding this, but it makes me feel very divided on signing up for this again.
  3. Where am I going?!: I’m not talking about the course here. In fact, the course guides and police officers were helpful, encouraging, and just generally awesome. I’m talking about actually getting to the start line. Despite the fact that we paid $10 to park in one of the recommended event day parking lots, there was no signage indicating where we should actually go. We had to follow a few people who looked like they knew where they were going, and we also listened for the music. When we actually arrived at the course, I couldn’t tell if the inflatable arches I was looking at were the start or the finish. I had to walk around for a while to find another set of arches labeled “FINISH” and then figure out where the start line was by process of elimination.

Despite all of this, the day was gorgeous. The views were beautiful. The hills were terrible, but maybe that’s preparing me for next week’s 10-miler? I don’t know. At the very least, I had the sound of my biggest little fan in my head. As I left her and the hubby to line up, I could hear her repeating, “GO, MAMA, GO!” over and over again. I’d be lying if I said that didn’t add some extra pep to my step.

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So now I’m just sitting here…uber nervous for Sunday. I am hoping that the conditions in and of themselves lead to a better run/finish. I have so many things on my mind lately, and nighttime isn’t even a respite. I get little rest with the vivid dreams and nightmares, and I wake up feeling drained and wondering whether a IV of caffeine might be worth it.

I guess I’ll be back tomorrow, hopefully on a bit more positive of a note. Step-by-step and day-by-day.

Read on. Run on.
Cassie

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7/21/16: Thankful Thursday

Today, I am still sick. Sicker than I want to be (although, who ever wants to be sick?). I wake each day hoping the scratchy throat or stuffy nose will have disappeared over night…well, the scratchiness and the stuffiness. Not my actual nose and throat. I need those.

But I am working hard to stay positive. Thankful Thursday probably comes at a good time.

  1. Coffee: Let’s see how many times this lands on the list. I was proud because I only got Starbuck’s three mornings last week. I thought, “I can do better! This is only the beginning.” And now I’m back to four mornings. Tomorrow isn’t looking promising either, but let’s not get ahead of ourselves.
  2. Air-conditioning: I don’t take this for granted. There is a nasty heatwave coming through here. If I stepped outside with my eyes closed, I would likely believe I stepped into a warm bath. Maybe my cold has presented itself at an opportune time, since it coincides with the oppressive weather. There! There’s the positive!
  3. The Bloggess: Specifically, her audiobook for “Furiously Happy.” I keep listening to it, and I’ve never had a book that makes me cry and laugh and yell, “Yes, she gets it!” so much at the same time. It’s wonderful, and I highly recommend it, particularly if you’ve dealt with mental illness or watched others struggle with it. And let’s face it, it has probably touched your life in some way.

Oh, and a bonus “thankful.” I am loving my kid’s smile. This morning, she ate breakfast in her diaper, and she got jelly all over her stomach. I called her jelly belly, and she couldn’t stop laughing. She even wanted to laugh for the camera, and I was more than willing to oblige.

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That’s all I’ve got for today. I’ll keep on hoping for a healthier tomorrow.

Read on. Run on.
Cassie

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7/7/16: Thankful Thursday

Here I am again. My resolve to post has been wavering, and my progress was unsteady (and nonexistent) for quite some time. I have a renewed passion, though, and I’ve slowly been working my way up to consistent training. Predictably, I am finding myself more able to say, “I’m having a good day.” Mentally. Physically. Spiritually. I’m able to function better when I run and take care of myself.

So without further ado, I’m going to make an attempt at my first “Thankful Thursday” post. My goal is to reflect on three things currently making my life better, whether they are related to running or not.

  1. Fresh nectarines: Okay, in general, fresh fruit is da bomb dot com right now. There’s something particularly wonderful about biting into the skin of a tangy nectarine the color of a sunset. And the fact that I have to actually pre-plan to have paper towels on hand, because they’re THAT juicy. Worth the mess.
  2. Coffee: Apparently, food and beverage consumption are at the top of my mind. In this case, I’m talking Starbuck’s dark roast. I KNOW I need to kick this habit, because it’s expensive and time-consuming and wasteful on my part. But I’m trying not to be too hard on myself. After all, this stuff is laced with some sort of crack, right? Or is it blessed by a little magical caffeine fairy?
    Okay, fine. I’ll try to limit myself to a couple cups a week…starting next week. Maybe.
  3. Dino-Toddler’s exponentially increasing verbal skills: Every day, I am cracking up and in awe and alarmed by how much vocabulary DT is acquiring. She won’t be 3 until October, but her ability to express herself through speech and song blows my mind. And is there anything much funnier than a 2-year-old randomly saying, “My butt is itchy”?
    The other morning, I was quite frustrated with her whining to be carried on the way into school. Finally, being the tough mom I am (not), I relented and picked her up. In exasperation, I asked, “What is your deal today?”  Without missing a beat, she replied, “I’m just feeling needy today, okay, Mama?”
    I laughed and agreed. All authority was compromised. I’m doing a bad job when it comes to enforcing the concept of “you can’t always get what you want.”

How’s that for totally-not-running-related? Overall, my training is going okay. I’m still slower than a turtle trudging through melted marshmallows. But I’ll get better. I have to keep telling myself that to have any sort of hope or determination.

And now that I’ve actually updated this beast, I’m leaving on vacation tomorrow through Monday. Maybe this will be a good opportunity to post the inaugural “Silent Saturday” photo. Maybe not. Low expectations, people.

Happy miles and
pages to you,
Cassie

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